Resolution

The Confederate prison, Camp Asylum,, the former South Carolina Lunatic Asylum. Reuben DeLay was confined there from December 1864 until it was evacuated before Sherman’s advancing army on February 17. 1865.

            A fictionalized account of Reuben DeLay’s time in Confederate prisons

            Reuben gently pushed the blanket he shared with Dawes over the form of his softly snoring bedmate. The air was cold and his joints ached from sleeping on the hard ground. He needed to stretch and get his blood circulating. He crawled out of the makeshift shebang and stood surveying the chaos of the camp in the damp, grey South Carolina morning.  He noted that the water in the only pail his mess owned was not frozen. That was a relief. The weather at Camp Asylum had been miserable, but at least the men were better protected than at the open Camp Sorghum.

            The Johnnies upgraded us from an open field to a lunatic asylum, He thought. What’s next, the Astor House?

The former South Carolina Lunatic Asylum was an improvement over some of the prisons he had been confined in. The sick could recover in the hospital building. His mess had constructed their shebang near the outer wall to gain some shelter from the wind. They had stitched together some tent scraps and hung them over an arbor of willows driven into the ground. It leaked; badly.

Reuben shared the sheebang with Dawes and four other Lieutenants. They slept together, messed together, and generally looked after each other. They shared what little they had; a griddle fashioned from some sheet iron, the rusty pail, a worn-out deck of cards, a tattered Bible, two pocket knives, and not much else. They had three blankets for six men. Dawes and Anderson had no shoes. Blaine had had no hat to protect his balding head.

            A handful of men were already up and awake. Reuben moved toward a man who was tending a small fire. He looked gaunt with stooped shoulders, sunken eyes, and the blackness of pitch pine smoke residue covering his face. Like everyone, his beard and hair were long and shaggy.

            “Greetings my friend, and a Happy New Year to you!” said the man.

            “Happy New Year!” Reuben responded automatically.

It was now 1865. A year ago, he had been on his way home to Iowa. The furlough had been surreal. People celebrated the return of the Third Iowa with dinners and speeches. For the moment, the war was forgotten. Now he was a prisoner of the Confederacy. Would he ever know the warmth of an Iowa fireplace again? Would he live to see Margaret and the kids? He barely knew the two youngest. Six-year-old Rosellen was now old enough to print “I love you Papa,” at the end of her mother’s letters. He received their last letter in Memphis two weeks before his capture. He still carried what was left of it in his pocket. Reading it was one of his few comforts in prison.

            Gradually, more men began to assemble around the little fire. They huddled together like cattle in a storm to keep warm. Greetings were terse. Some simply nodded in recognition.

“Hell of a way to spend New Year’s,” one grumbled as he pulled his blanket tighter around his shoulders.

            “Well, here we are,” said the philosopher of the group. “Lincoln is probably holding a reception at the White House today. Jeff Davis is eating crow ‘cuz Uncle Billy just marched across Georgia and took Savannah. If he heads north this Spring, we’ll be between him and Grant.”

            “Unfortunately, Lee and Johnson’s armies are in the middle with us,” someone pointed out. “Johnson might be retreating all over the South, but Grant cain’t seem to make any headway against Lee.”

            The others, some from Grant’s army, nodded in agreement. The Butcher’s Bill in Virginia was a hell of a price to pay for victory. Still, they could hope.

            “The South is runnin’ out of everything; men, material, food,” remarked the philosopher. ‘Their money is worthless and they can’t get anything past the blockade. Just look at those miserable wretches guarding us. They’re defeated and they know it. I heard two of them deserted last week.”

            “When I made it to the Blue Ridge, the mountains full of shirkers from the Confederate draft and deserters from their army,” said Meigs. “They ain’t got nuthin’ invested in the Rebel cause and they know the jig is up.”

            The others grunted in agreement. Someone asked, “Anyone made one of those New Year’s resolutions?”

            “Yep,” said one. “I’m gonna lose me some weight.”

            This brought a hearty laugh from those present. Most had lost a third of their weight on the miserable rations provided by their captors. After seven months of captivity, Reuben was a shadow of his former self. It was hard to tell how much of him was left under his loose-fitting uniform.

            “I think I’ll escape two or three more times,” said Meigs. The men laughed. He had escaped from their last camp twice. He almost made it to Tennessee and freedom the second time.  The Home Guard had captured him stealing a chicken from a farmer.

            “I’m gonna study the Bible. All of it. Maybe I’ll take up preachin’ if’n I survive,” said another.

            “You mend your ways?” chimed in his companion. “That’ll be the day!”

            “I’m gonna take all my back pay and move to Montana,’” said a man with a New York accent. “I hear the gold in Bannack is lying on the ground, ready for the taking.”

            “You couldn’t even dig out a privy, let alone bust up hard rock and quartz city feller!” chided a grizzled Captain from Sherman’s Army of the West. “The Sioux or the Cheyenne would be skinnin’ you alive before you got half there.”

            “And what about you, Lieutenant?” asked Major Bowers. “Got any notions for 1865?

            Reuben thought long and hard. Then he said, “Some of my New Year’s resolutions didn’t pan out.”

            “How so?”

            “Well, in 1856 I resolved to become a success as a Kansas sod-buster.”

            “Kansas? You were in all the troubles at Lawrence then?”

            “No, I bypassed Lawrance to settle farther south in Linn County. Big mistake.”

            Those Border Ruffians from Missouri give you a hard time?”

            You might say so. I got shot at a few times and they burned me out once.”

            “Burned you out/. How long did you stay?”

            “Two years. I stuck it out as long as I could. By the time I left, I was married with one kid and another on the way.”

            “Lucky you made it that long. What kept you alive?”

            I joined up with Montgomery’s Self-Protective Company. We got even with some of those buggers from Missouri.”

            “You were a Jayhawker?” asked Major Bowers incredulously.

            “I suppose you could say that. Montgomery didn’t cotton much to thievin’ except when we needed something for the cause. I left Kansas for the last time with some fine Missouri horses though. Sold them for enough to get a good place back in Iowa. I had to live under an alias until the war started. Those Missouri sheriffs have long memories and sometimes they stray into Iowa.”

            “Was that Colonel Montgomery of the colored South Carolina regiment??

            “That would be him, ‘cept when I knew him, he was a preacher and a dirt-poor farmer. He got in a little deep but managed to stick it out. He volunteered when the War started and they dropped all the warrants.”

            “Any of your other resolutions work out?”

            “In ’57 I resolved to marry the purdiest gal in Iowa. We’ve got four kids now. My wartime resolutions weren’t so hot though.”

“Don’t I know that one. Last year mine was Win the War in Sixty-Four!” chuckled Bowers. He was followed by a chorus of wartime slogans from the men.

“Victory in ninety days!”

“Save the Union!”

“Home by Christmas!”

The men all laughed at their naïve objectives for the war.

Then Reuben spoke, “I suppose we all need resolutions to keep us going. A man without a goal in this place is a dead man.”

The men nodded soberly as Reuben pondered what to say next. It had been a long, tough war. He had risked his life in battle and suffered the privations of prison. Heavy on his conscience was the fate of the twenty men under his command when he was forced to surrender at Ripley the previous summer. At first, he had been able to look after them and keep up their morale.  Then he had been sent to the officers’ prison at Macon.  He now had no idea what had become of his men. Most were from Appanoose County. If he ever made it home he would have to face their families.

All eyes were on Reuben when he finally spoke.

“I am going to survive this damn place. And when I get back to God’s Country, I am going to make sure that nothing like this ever happens to anyone else.”

“Here, here!’ shouted a chorus of voices.

LDT January 1, ‘25

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Christmas Potpourri

So Christmas time is almost here,

  Time for us to spread some cheer.

And think about some times long gone,

  And other Christmas days bygone.

Like that day in Forty-Nine,

  Dad a-runnin’ on that Northern line.

A whistle blow would tell us when,

  Our Christmas would at last begin.

Or Christmas in a foreign land,

  Before that Asian war began.

Or baskin’ in the Tropic sun,

  Rompin’ in the surf for fun.

First Christmas with a newborn baby,

  She’s a doll, there is no maybe.

Cuddlin’ with the one I love,

  Sent to me from up above.

Holed up in a snow-bound house,

  We love Winter we espouse.

“Heilige Nacht” in an old stone church,

    A Tanenbaum where candles perch.

A Blue Norther chills all the land,

  But Ohio beckons with her hand.

We press on through the Winter blast,

  Snow pack roads not so fast.

My parents are so long gone,

  But here I have a Dad and Mom.

Now Grandkids bless our home so sweet,

  Each of them is such a treat.

Our wish for you though far or near,

  Is that this day will bring you cheer.

LDT Christmas 2004

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A Reindeer Named Karen

Hi, I’m Karen. I’m the replacement reindeer for Blitzen in the number 7 slot on Santa’s sleigh. It seems old Blitzen fell of the wagon and nearly crashed the sleigh last Christmas. The job is a bitch, but I’m out of hay. Sometimes ya gotta do stuff to survive.

            The other coursers are some snooty ruminants. Rudolph is the worst. Since he got that record deal, he thinks all he needs to do is prance around and look pretty. Prancing is Prancer’s job, but he isn’t very good at it. Dasher and Dancer do the heavy hauling, but they are both dumb as an ox. Two oxen, maybe. It is good that they are good pullers though.  I gotta admit, sometimes I leave a little slack in the traces. Santa has put on some weight and those new Nintendos are kinda heavy. This ain’t my Christmas fantasy. Why put myself out?

            Santa’s sleigh is an older model. Probably a 648. That makes it what? Thirteen hundred and seventy-six years old! Even if you figure it only gets used one night a year, it has a lot of hard miles on it. The damn thing is hard to pull too. Hell, they started selling streamlined sleighs in 1936. Why do I have to bust my reindeer butt pulling this pile of junk around?

            Santa has been milking this Christmas gig for far too long. He sits around loafing while the elves do all the work. He’s got a big mansion at the North Pole with an indoor pool and a three-sleigh garage. Meanwhile we reindeer are out on the frozen tundra trying to forage a measly blade of grass. It’s oligarchs like him who have exploited those who do all the work. We oughta form a union. We got rights!

            The route tonight takes us over northern Europe first. The sleigh looks weird with all those alpine skis sticking out. I’ll be glad when we are rid of them. They better leave us some sugar cubes and schnapps! The Italian kids know how to pick reindeer treats. And lots of vino to wash them down. Meanwhile Santa will pig out on pizza and glühwein. That ain’t gonna lighten our load.

            After Europe we’ll zip across 4 time zones to get to North America. The Canadian kids all wanted hockey sticks which are damn near as bad as the skis. In the good old USA we finally get rid of all those Nintendos and electronic geehaws. What a bunch of entitled, useless little urchins! The Mexican kids get nothing now that Trump is president. Speak English or go back to where you came from!

            By dawn we’ll be on our way back to the Pole. While Rudolph and Santa get all the credit, the rest of us will be bone tired. My only satisfaction will be when that red-nosed elitist gets back to his stall. I stole all his hay and replaced it with a fake Christmas tree.

            I saved the best for Santa though. Mrs. Claus will be greeting him with a rolling pin. Someone, I won’t mention who, told her about how much time he spent at that voluptuous Italian model’s villa. Stick that up your fat, uh well you know what I mean Santa.

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Line Camp Christmas

Rex Thill spent a very cold winter at the Etchart Ranch in South Valley County, Montana about 1968. This horse was his only company

The cattle have all been fed,

  And Bowser’s lyin’ in his bed.

The fire crackles in the stove,

  The hackamore is finally wove.

He doesn’t have a Christmas pine,

  A tumbleweed will do just fine.

Tinsel from store-bought smokes,

  Good enough for most cowpokes.

Ornaments from cactus fruit,

   Strung up on cords of jute.

The window is all frosted up,

  Beans and bacon for his sup.

 Wind is blowin’ awful hard,

   Snow piles up by the yard.

He sings an old Christmas song,

  With his guitar he strums along.

Later on, the cow boss comes,

  With some porridge and some plums.

His whiskey they’ll be drinkin’ straight,

  There ain’t so much to celebrate.

In the night sky they see a star,

  Reminding them of who they are.

Just God’s children full of awe,

  Seeing what the angels saw.

A Holy night to stir the soul,

   The comfort of a warm bedroll.

It’s Christmas Eve and all is well,

  For those who on the prairie dwell.

LDT Christmas Eve, December 24, ‘24

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Bad Mexicans

A Book that Could Be Banned

As I read Bad Mexicans: Race, Empire, and Revolution in the Borderlands, I was reminded of the extraordinary efforts of the state of Arizona to ban the teaching of Mexican-American Studies by the Tucson School District. The conservative leaders of my state lived in fear of telling the truth about the struggles of Americans of Mexican heritage. They seemed to believe that the knowing their history might somehow alienate Mexican-American students. This would make them less malleable and more dangerous to the ideals of state leaders. The effort to ban Mexican-American Studies was White Supremacy at its core.

Kelly Lytle Hernandez tells the story of the origins of the Mexican Revolution through the deeds and actions of those who inspired it. She places the blame for the conditions which led to the Revolution squarely on American economic imperialism. Sensing an opportunity, American titans invested heavily in the Mexican economy during the three-decade long rule of Porfirio Diaz. Americans owned virtually all the mines, railroads, petroleum, and manufacturing infrastructure. Mexican labor was exploited by low pay and bad working conditions. Diaz had driven the peasants from their lands creating a feudal empire. Indigenous peoples, like the Maya and Yaqui, had been driven from their ancestral homelands to work as virtual slaves for rich land owners. Americans owned a quarter of Mexico’s agricultural land. Some Americans bought and sold indigenous people who were indebted to those who had stolen their land.

A handful of revolutionary journalists and dreamers emerged to oppose Diaz and his enablers. They worked on both sides of the border to foment revolution. Some were men of action, taking to the revolution to the streets of Mexico. Others lived in exile, their pens as their only weapon. One of the latter was Ricardo Flores Magon, publisher of the inflammatory Regeneration newspaper. Suppressed by Mexican and American authorities, the paper, and the movement it spawned lived underground in the borderlands and communities as far afield as St Louis and Douglas, Arizona.

When the revolution finally erupted in 1910, the radicals who had sparked it were largely swept aside. They became a postscript to Mexican history as the revolution continued to rage on toppling several governments until it petered out around 1917. About one million Mexicans fled to the US during the Revolution. Their descendants deserve to know what drove them here. The book, Bad Mexicans, is a good start to their story.

LDT December 16, ‘24

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Kilowatt

Dance at the Glasgow, MT High School gym-1958

His name was Kent but we called him Kilowatt,

‘cuz the way that he danced was so damn hot.

Jerry Lee’s piano was no match for him,

And Kilowatt was his pseudonym.

White Bucks and ducktails were all the rage,

And America’s youth were on the rampage.

Hot cars with Smittys were cruisin’ the drag,

Quarter mile rods with bolted-on swag.

Aspirin and coke were the drug of our choice,

A Wurlitzer juke box gave us our voice.

Jon’s Ice Cream Parlor was the place we hung out,

As we tried to discover what life was about.

At Friday night football we usually lost,

Chasin’ the ball in the snow and the frost.

We consoled ourselves at the Hop in the gym,

When Kilowatt danced, we all gaped at him.

He had all the moves, the steps, and the grooves,

And when he rocked, it was the devil on hooves.

We all stood aside to give him some room,

And asked the band to boost the volume.

I think of him yet when the old songs they play,

A Rock ‘n Roll hero back in the day.

LDT November 30, ‘24

In memory of Kent Kalweit 1941-2013

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Bottom of My Glass

Now I don’t mean to sound so crass,

But the world looks better through my glass.

It puts a golden glow on all I see,

When things aren’t what they should be.

It offers me a better view,

When I get to feelin’ blue.

One more beer and I’ll be fine,

Two or three would be divine.

I pull my slouch hat way down low,

Don’t want my Preacher Man to know.

Tell no one that I am here,

Just countin’ bubbles in my beer.

Until all my troubles pass,

I’ll look at them through this glass.

LDT November 23, ‘24

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The Age of Uncertainty

Karen an I are in the process of retrenching as we live out our remaining years while navigating troubled waters. We have recently arranged for in home care and assistance. Though a Godsend, we now find ourselves dipping into savings to get by. (Not to worry, barring an economic collapse, we should be fine.) We have had to cut back on things like travel, leisure, dining out, charitable giving, and helping family members.

            We see some dark clouds in the future. I retired under an archaic public pension system that virtually no one is still paying into. For now, it seems safe, but the system has few advocates left. The current wave of anti-government populist nationalism will probably create some instability in all our lives. Perhaps ours more than yours.

            I expect the cost of living to go up dramatically as tariffs are imposed and workers are deported. The air and water will get dirtier while temperatures rise bringing more adverse weather events. Farmers will adapt to changing conditions by finding new ways to raise new crops. Safer areas will see an influx of climate refugees. Energy prices will continue enriching the oligarchs, Russians, and Middle Eastern potentates. They will have increasing sway in domestic and world affairs. People will continue to feel that their governments don’t care about them. The right to freedom of expression will be constrained by social pressures if not by legal means. Governments will become more authoritarian. Pressure groups will seek to impose their values on others. No country will step forward to promote world peace and human rights. Whole populations will find themselves increasingly marginalized.

            Here at home the economy is about to go through considerable disruption. Tariffs will raise prices and result in retaliatory tariffs on our exports. Any jobs created by domestic protectionism could be offset by decreased sales of American goods overseas. Income disparity will continue to increase. Hunger and homelessness will be on the rise.People who can no longer afford health insurance will get sicker. Social unrest will get uglier.

God help us if another airborne virus strikes. There will not be enough mask wearing, social distancing, closures, or vaccines to protect us. Waters will rise as more glacial ice melts. Kiss the coastal areas goodbye if Antarctica’s Doomsday Glacier slides into the sea.

I no longer see myself as part of the solution to the world’s problems. Like you, I have concluded that it is now every man for himself.

Good luck. I’ll see you on the other side, if there is one.

LDT November 12, ‘24

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Unbowed

Bataan Death March 1942

A mournful bugle blows,

For a soldier no one knows.

Sent to foreign shores,

To fight forgotten wars.

The enemy on the flanks,

With aero planes and tanks.

The ammo running low,

And nowhere left to go.

They say he gave his all,

Until the bastion’s fall.

The white flag of surrender,

Was the battle’s ender.

Marched o’er harsh terrain,

He never did complain.

Penned behind a fence,

The cruelty made no sense.

Beaten, starved, and cursed.

By those who showed their worst,

No letters came for him,

His fate looked kinda grim.

Grilled for information,

Stayed loyal to the nation.

Tunneled out one night,

Gave the goons a fright.

Helped the sick and lame,

Cuz they’d do the same.

Stood up to the guards,

In a dozen prison yards.

Though he earned no glory,

He lived to tell the story.

That he remained unbowed,

Made his country proud.

LDT Veterans Day November 11, ‘24

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